covenant

The G12 Conference was great! I'm so glad i went. Pastor Cesar was awesome, he spoke faith into my heart, and i was truly encouraged by his words. Even daniel khong's message was timely, he spoke what was really in my mind. However, what really amazed me was the sermon by Ps Cesar after that, and the covenant he invited us to make. I had been asking God about the question for quite some time, and i couldnt get any definite answer. When the speakers called for ministry, with invitation direct at my situation, I decided not to walk down to the altar. I wanted to hear a specific word from God to call me. I want to be sure that God is asking for me. I dont want to go forward, thinking that God is calling me, fell into the presence of God, but come back, back to my usual self again. I dont want it just to be a temporary "feeling" but i want it to really work out for me in real life. So i told God, "If You will, please show me that it is really going to work out in my life instead of making go forward for a temporary state of "high-ness" but back to my same old problem after i walked out of the church!".

I thank God for Ps Cesar's calling for the covenant, and i want to thank God once again that i am in a situation where i can fulfill the covenant. I felt it was God's way of assuring the unbelieving me that He is going to really fulfill his promises to me. I believe it. So on top of the matter of what Ps Cesar got us to fulfill, i told God that i will sanctify myself to prepare for the fulfillment of God's promise to me, for the whole of the 3 months. Not as part of the covenant though, but a show of my trust in Him for the fulfillment of the covenant. It's difficult, and i know i probably wont be able to do it. Not by my own strength, but i'm going to rely on Him to help me with it.

It's truely amazing, i gave myself 3 years but God promised me 3 months! It's almost impossible for me to even think about it, but i know that with God, all things are possible! So i'm going to trust in His providence. Then after which, i will commit my whole life to His cause.