The end is coming soon

The covenant is coming to an end soon... and i'm losing myself day by day. I'm not sure if God will honour His word, but i'm gg to fulfill mine. Anyway, i would have gone straight to it if not for the diversion when God asked for the covenant. Did i intentionally asked for it? No, i'm sure i didnt, He invited me to it, and i thought He'd fulfill it. Guess i'm wrong. How can i continue to believe in Him anymore, when what He said He would not do? Num 23:19 - Is He a man that He should lie, or a son of man that He should repent? Will He say and He would not do? Will He speak and not make it good? 

I'm tired of all the excuses what others are saying, if that is not what He had said, through the same voice, then all i had heard previously are not true either.